wen aka miss lonely's world

sian!!

2006-01-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

hee~ fucking long didn blog in le! hee~ reli miss all my frenz!! wahaha.. new year cumin! sian sian sian!!! gonna work on eve and sec day of new year! knnb! waha.. nowadays alot of things happen! i m no longer da gal hu is gonna b by yrside! hee~ my life sux nowadays man!!! wahaha..

siaN!`

2005-12-15T11:47:00.000+08:00

i wana cry!!! why is my life so up and down??? can any1 tell mi wad to do??? i got nth in mind! wana die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love..

2005-10-27T11:20:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. i cut my hair ytd! no comments. hee~ i miss my laopo! i miss my frenz! eatin roti boy! wahaha.. yummy!!!! hee~ tml got test. muz go sch earli! i muz study hard! to repay my ama!

love you lotz!!! i m not in love with him..

but in love with you all!!! wahaha.. muackz!

hee~

2005-10-26T10:55:00.001+08:00

i m a techno siao! i wana go clubbing! i wana drink! i wana smoke! haiz... all tis is juz a dream!
its time to wake up from lala land! wah sian! cry cry cry! are you gonna save mi? wahaha... love you!!! i love my family, laopo, laogong and darlings!

hee~

2005-10-26T10:55:00.000+08:00

wa...

2005-10-26T10:50:00.000+08:00

knn.. fuckin sian.. finally gonna exam.. hee~ chiu nie is in singapore now! wahaha.. i m gonna look for her today! hee~ she call mi ytd wen i was in mei's house! wahaaha.. i miss her like hell lor! hee.. today gonna cut my hair! at toni and guy.. but scare. don dare to cut, scare not nice! wahaha... sian sian sian.. wana slp! hu can cum n save mi?????? faster save mi!

love or die!

if i will to choose,

i will choose die.

cuz i don wan you anymore!

hmph!!!!

2005-10-21T08:40:00.000+08:00

i m so tired! wana slp liao.. today gonna study wid yun! wahaha.. aft for so long! i m very tired! ytd was very bz! muxh finish report by today! wahaha.. i miss all my darlings!

i miss you day and nite!

r you gonna miss mi?

i don tink so ba!

hurt! i feel so hurt!

sian sian sian..

2005-10-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

very long didn write liao.. miss my blog!! wahaha.. got lotsa prob now! m waitin to solve! life seem to be meaninless to mi now! wahaha..

things cum and go. m i gonna put it down?

yes i m!

i m so weak,

wild memories of lovin you.

da past is searching for you.

i cant use love as...

an excuse to restrict you.

but i really miss you alots!

i really wana forget you!

i m still waitin.

Leave!

i really really miss you!

i hate myself,

i feel like cryin!

wahaha..

2005-10-19T11:29:00.000+08:00

hate you hate you hate you hate you hate you!

i miss you i miss you i miss you!!

wahaha.. i m mad! hee~ don bother mi so much liao!

2005-10-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. sian!!! hee~ i m so tired!!!! wahaha.. life is so borin!! now havin EFW! so can use com! wahaha.. sian sian sian!!! ytd received jo's msg! wahaha.. hapi sia! so long didn hear from her le! hee~ on sat, tok to yun abt 3hours de fone!! meanwhile got confence wid jennifer, mi and jennifer "quarrel" lor!! wahaha.. fun fun fun!!! funny funny funny!!! wahaha wahaha wahaha!!! nowadays, very sian! very tired lor!! workin time, wana slp!!! how how how??? m i dyin? or wad? why m i so tired? mayb its time to take a long break, to have a long slp!

wad is hapi and sweet memories?

izit da memories we had share?

or da moments we had?

i dono wad i wan!

but juz to say i m tired!

forgive mi for doin anything!

i m juz tired of everything!

wahaha..

2005-10-07T10:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. very sian!!! now in class tokin to mic!!! haha.. she is tellin mi abt her day ytd nite!!! ytd, mic, xian and mi wen to queenie's grandpa song ga. sob sob sob!!! somemore is queenie's birthday lor!! haiz.. wad to say??? sadcase!

lets not tok abt all da sad thing! we muz leave all da sad things bhind!!! hee~

sian sian sian!!! wana slp liao!!! now in class havin BSA lesson!!! haha.. aft that can go home lor! wahaha.. den lata go out ba!! haha.. i spend alotz of money this week!!! how??? i wana save money de lor! very long didn go clubbing, but still cannt save money!!! why why why??? my com can go in friendster liao!!! hapi hapi hapi!!!

fuck lah!

2005-10-03T08:50:00.000+08:00

hmmm..

wad to say???

on fri, i got into an toopid car incident!

hurt mi handy!!

pain pain sia!! sob..

nowadays, i m feelin beta for wad i m sufferin weeks ago.

ytd, jo msg mi!! wahaha.. finally!!!

she tell mi say she move house liao.

why suddenly send mi msg??? cuz i tell her abt da incident!

reli appreciate all da concern!!

wad is L O V E?

i dono!

can anyone tell mi?

all i wan to noe,

wad is L O V E again!

hee..

2005-09-30T11:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. ytd, end sch earli!! at 12! den go lot 1 walk walk!! haha.. mic and mi bought a lighter! $3.90! haha.. very cute lor.. haha.. den i go home abt 3! yun tell mi that ting dong's shop close down liao. hmmm... wad happen lei??? i dono! haiz.. tink business cannt make it ba.. i dono.. anyhow guess nia!!! den meet eliza at serene! talk talk.. den reach home abt 6plus. haha.. shena call mi ytd! we tok for 50mins plus! but..... 30mins was silent! i fall aslp while we are still on da fone! haha..

hee~

wad if i say~

i ~

m i s s ~

y o u ~

scare!

2005-09-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

haiz.. today got book keepin test! i scare i will fail! cuz i cannt get da amount rite!!! sob! study for so hard! yet cannt get it rite! wana cry like shit liao! toopid mi.. why didn concentrate??? haiz.. today.. goin to lot 1 collect my SHE de cd!! wahaha.. i'm lovin it!!! haha..

baby i love you,
i will never let you go!
but if i have to,
boy i think that you sld noe.
all da love we make,
can never be erase!
and i promise you that you will never be replace!

... dono wad to say!

2005-09-28T11:10:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. now in class.. everything change! change till i cannt caught up.. too old liao.. help mi! wad sld i do? i got lotsa problem! ytd, didn go sch! fo find jennifer play cards.. haha.. we plan to go pak pool one day! mic, jennifer, mi and jennifer de stead ba! haha.. jennifer have to pay $10, mic pay $7 and mi???? $8.. haha.. cuz lost in cards game ma.. wahaha..

love sux when you are not in love!

love rockz when you are in love!

to mi,

love are alwayz very sweet!

but i m not in love,

why do i say so?

cuz i alwayz believe in love!

i m sorry if i hurt you!

but i really dono wad to do!

nth but juz sorry!

i m gonna give up everything!

includin you!

sian!!!

2005-09-26T08:53:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. very sian!!! wana slp le.. hmmm.. wad to do??? i m juz very tired! wana rest!!!

sian

2005-09-23T11:30:00.000+08:00

haha.. morning meet mic and her boi at clementi, eat breakfast! aft eatin, walk walk! walk liao go sch! now in sch "study" sian!!!! ytd study till headache.. slp very earli! now feelin beta le! arbo will die ar! i wana go watch movie! but very ex! hai.. no money liao.. next week still need to but SHE de album! hai!!! but.. bo hiu! wad i wan, i will go get it! haha.. no one can stop mi from gettin it wor! hee~

wad is love again?

i cant rmb wad is love.

but i noe it hurts when love turn sour!

i don dare to fall in love again,

reason is i m scare.

piss lah!

2005-09-22T11:20:00.000+08:00

knn.. angry lor! juz now log in to rite abt wad is goin on ytd de.. toopid teacher la.. exit my blogger.. knn.. haiz... full full full! juz finish eating curry mee! wahaha.. very long didn eat liao! very sian! i wana give up everything! includin you!

i m happy when you say you miss mi,

happy when you say you love mi,

happy when you do all da sweet things to mi,

happy when you call mi.

but now,

i m tryin very hard to forget wad you had done for mi.

wo yao yong yi bei zi lai wong ji ni!

wo xiang xing wo ke yi!

i m sori

2005-09-21T11:40:00.000+08:00

sori my dear!

to yun: i m really very sori if i had giving you cold shoulder!

haiz.. stress stress stress! ytd watch tian gao de jie di! very nice! very romantic wor.. haha.. if i got this kind of boyfriend, i will be fuckin hapi lor! haha.. nth to rite le lei.. very sian! i wana SLP! lack of slp! will die de lei! i miss you!

i wana go play pool! i very long didn play pool le!

i also wana go chiong! very long didn go liao!

cry cry cry! not cuz of didn go chiong or play pool!

is for myself!

i miss you,

i miss you.

i m sori,

i m juz very weak.

only if love never happen,

i wont be so hurting.

sian

2005-09-20T13:45:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. so sian.. juz finish tut!!! haha.. very tired very full! now login to my msn! finally! wahaha.. i m tired sick and tiredof living! i m a bitch that people hate! hmmm..

my frenship suz outside sch! i m alone outside! at times, i will tink of past! but wad can i do? i choose not to go close to you anymore! i don wan anymore hurt! i don wana hurt you or myself! i m juz tired of everything! aarrgg!!! i dono anything lah! hate it lotz! if i noe frenship is gonna be turn sour, i rather choose not to noe you!

wad rebecca say is true! bestfriends don need to meet everyday. cuz you will get to noe everything abt he or her! and you all will have conflict!

people say: da one closes to you is da one hu hurt you lotz!

at first i don believe! but now..... i do!

i oso believe that wad is done is done! cannot redo anymore!

love is something that can be sweet!

it can make you smile when you are sleeping!

but when it turn sour,

it will make you cry day and nite!

god!!! plz wash away all my memories! i m suffering!

wahaha..

2005-09-19T16:20:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. now in class jokin with jieying and mic! wahaha.. fun fun fun~ now listenin to SHE de new song! from sia mei's blog! wahaha.. thx you sia mei! wahaha.. miss all my darlingz! haha.. SHE de album is cumin out on 26/09/05! muz buy wor! haha..
i lost my $90!!! juz fly away like that! haiz!!! $90 juz gone like that! sad! you noe $90 can spend how long ma? haiz!!! my toopid sis go cut her hand! dono why! i scolded her! fucker lor! i don like ppl surroundin mi to cut he or herself!
lata goin lot 1! to eat! wahaha!!! dono eat wad! haha.. any idea? ytd jennifer msg mi! tink she got prob with her dear ba! wahaha.. don understand why galz muz owayz cry or get sad cuz of guyz! getting more and more stress abt relationship! i very scare to get into any other relationship anymore! no courage! why??? ppl got sweet relationship but i don have! Mmm.. sori.. but i m juz jealous!

i m scare!
very scare!
day and nite,
i have been missin you!
i wish to see you day and nite!
but fact is i cant!

wad is frenship?
isit when you need help,
your fren will help you?
or juz let you die?
wad i see is,
some frenz will help you!
some frenz don!
some frenz will use you!
need you that time cum to you!
don need you that time leave you alone!
so frenz worst!
got new frenz don wan old frenz!! all this are bloody idiot!

i had enf of this kind of frenship! i hate it! i don wan to have it! i rather be alone! i mean it!!!

sian..

2005-09-16T08:52:00.000+08:00

very sian.. juz finish conso.. ask some toopid questions.. why didn cum sch?? fail wad sub??? work whr??? work how many days?? all kind of shit! ytd do my msn account! wahaha..

feel free to add mi! miss_wed19@hotmail.com

when i say i miss you,

you don take it to heart.

when i say i love you,

you thug that i m jokin.

when i say i hate you,

you thug that i m crazy.

when i say i m gonna leave you,

you thug that i m gonna hurt you.

why???

its you who is hurting mi,

not mi hurting you!

i m fully hurt!

my heart bleed when i tink of you,

pain when i miss you!

its time to say goodbye to you,

i m gonna keep all the memories that related to you somewhr inside my heart!

hais..

2005-09-15T11:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. if i didn go sia's de blog.. i wont noe that SHE de new album is cumin out. and i wont noe that tml can pre-order le.. thank to sia mei!!!! wahaha.. hmmm.. try to go in to da faith fanclub de web.. but cannt.. haha.. ytd i went in to sia mei's blogspot to listen SHE's new song!!! wahaha.. so nice!!! i m gonna pre-order!!! wahaha.. love dem like hell sia!!!

tml have to go sch earli.. muz see teacher.. for conso! haiz.. sianz.. today very sian!! dono why.. juz wana be alone to cool down myself.. but i cant! haiz..

i wana watch red shoe! is NC16!!! i msg jo ytd! ask her wana watch wid mi ma? she say she moving house! den now she wana spend more time wid her grandma. hope i can understand. i understand!! wahaha.. movie can watch anytime de.. wahaha..

mayb its time to learn to be indepandant,

wad i wan is to wash away all da memories wid you.

start a fresh new mi,

stop all da unhappy memories.

learn how to smile without you again,

enjoy my life without you.

no worries,

i wont hurt myself anymore.

i don have da courage to do anymore things without you,

but i will learn.

don wish to see you anymore,

stay away from mi.

sian..

2005-09-14T10:22:00.000+08:00

wah lau... so sian!!! i have been so sad for more den 3 weeks liao.. i dono why.. i thug i can get over!!! but i juz realise that i cant.. why tings change so much within a month??? fate had change my life!!! my frenship and relationship!!! i m tire!!! really very tire!!! i had enf!!! i don wana tink so much anymore!!! i m sick and tire of everything surroundin mi!!!

juz leave mi alone!!! don cum n hurt mi anymore!!! i m fully hurt! why muz you hurt mi??? by usin her??? heartbreak!!! i wana cry. feel like cryin.. but my tears are dry! all cuz of you!! i don have any tears for you anymore. izit a good or bad ting??

hai.. juz kana undertakin again!!! 2 weeks.. wahaha.. sian!!! today.. gonna make my account thing!!! wahaha.. hapi!!! hee..

stress!!!!

2005-09-09T11:10:00.000+08:00

hai.. ytd i dye my hair, sad!!! hmmm.. ytd jennifer and melvin celeb their birthday together!! dey invited mi, but i cannt go!!! wahaha.. den i mag jennifer, she say smt like sad i cannt go, not fun without mi, den i tell her don like that say!!! den i promise her say after her O level, we go chiong!!!! wahaha.. i promise her i will go means i will go!!!

sometime is not that i wana break my promise!! is i got my own problem!! i got my own things!!! i got thing that cannt be solve so easily!!! things are not wad we alwayz tink so easy and simple!!

i start to tink of wad is going on in my life!! den i realise that i actually don like hu i m now!!! why m i so unhappy??? why do i alwayz cry wen i tink of my past??? my frenship and relationship!!!! i don wan to noe anything anymore!!! i juz hate hu i m now!!!

if i can choose, i will choose to lost all my sad memories!!! i don wish to rmb anything!!! i hate memories!!! i hate it wen things change from sweet to sour!!! I DON WAN!!!!

hmmm..

2005-09-06T13:54:00.000+08:00

time passes fast!!! i kana caught by seam (my ITE's teacher) for my colourful hair. hai.. toopid lor.. den ytd lesson suppose to end at 5. but cuz of that jieying n mi walk out of sch b4 12. toopid teacher say if we r not goin to dye our hair back to black, our attentant will be mark as zero! is as well as not in sch. knn.. but we still cum. i don care!!! i wana study lor. haha..

on teacher's day eve, i went back to sec sch!!! i miss all my sch's mates. haha.. den eliza, joan, aud and mi go town. we took neo print!!! hee.. smile sweetly wor!!! haha.. den eliza n joan meet kriti. as for mi n aud.. we go cine take neo.. haha.. aud very cute wor!!! haha.. >.<

today.. morning wake up at 8 plusm, bath liao jiu leave house le. meetin mic at clementi at 10.30am.. but i was late. cuz i took bus to hongkong street ( da place whr i work in da past) den change bus to clementi. cuz wen i leave my house was 9.20, n mic wana meet mi at 10.30. but in da end, mic reach first. wahaha.. today is simon's birthday!!! so i msg him lor.. haha.. now in sch. mic go home.. Mmm.. hee.. sian!!! i miss my darling!!! hee.. you sld noe hu u R!!! hee..

hmmm.. nowadays always stay at home do nth!!! cuz nobody jio mi out!! kidding la. cuz i busy. haha.. but if anyone wana go out, can ask mi along!!! provided i m not busy!!! hee..

i miss aileng, xiuling, liang ru, stella, christine and xinping!!! wish to meet you all up again!!! hee.. love you all wor!!! muackz!!!

sad..

2005-08-30T13:38:00.000+08:00

sad.. tis few week got a lotz of things happen. my best frenz are no longer my best frenz. i m gonna leave everything behind, continue my life. i cant owayz be sad. everyone choose to leave mi. i got nth to say.

you say you love mi,
wont leave mi.
but you leave mi liao,
you wont cum back.

we use to b very close,
we owaz do things together.
we are now not as close as past,
we started to lost contact.

i dye my hair last week!!! very nice!!! i like it alotz!!!
juz happen that alotz of thing happen at da same time. if i can choose, i will choose to stay at da point of time wen i meet you.

im sorry.
i sldn break my word.
i m really very sorry,
wad sld i do???
to make everything stop??

tis is wad i m gonna do, i m gonna leave ppl that is not close to me now!!!
ppl that treat mi like a spare tire, fuck off la. i m gonna hate you to da fuckin core.
knnbccb. fuck off la.
hate you to da core!!!!

haha

2005-08-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. finally i can write smt in my blog again le. life is lyk a glass. once its break, cannot mend it back. hai.. miss him alotz.. bt too bad.. we cannot make it anymore. sob. cry..

haha..

2005-08-10T11:57:00.000+08:00

finally.. get to rite smt here. haha.. my life nowadays v sian. yun stop work le. haha.. good for her. as she is havin her O level tis year. haha.. juz hope she can jia you. haha.. laogong owaz love laopo wor!!! hee.. wana go chiong!!!! feel lyk goin to chiong.. haha.. bt cannt la. muz study first. haha.. i m v stress wid alots of things nowaday. dono yyy.. ytd nite i cry. cuz i tink alotz. wonderin how m i gonna survive. i hate da amy tan i m now.

i wan da mi in da past!!!!

hai..
if u r gonna leave mi
life is gonna b v meaningless 4 mi.
how m i gonna continue without you??
teach mi!
mayb its time to change.
to b a independent gal.
i wish i could!

haha..

2005-07-20T11:32:00.000+08:00

v sian.. was tokin to my darling ytd. haha.. we tok alotz!!! she got prom.. is her fren. hai.. y muz we fan abt our fren?? we care and concern abt dem.. bt dey noe??? don tink dey noe lo. hai.. ytd was my birthday. bt i m nt hapi. dono why. was v sad n depress nowadays. cry everynite. why is my life so sux??? i hate my life.

ytd.. alot of ppl wish mi hapi birthday. i wana thx everyone. haha.. love you all lotz lotz wor. here.. a muack.. oops.. haha.. love love love.. hug n kisses.

ha

2005-07-15T11:36:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. hapi.. today im goin to celebrate my birthday. ha.. hapi sia. hmmm.. ytd, met yun 4 dinner. den we go home. at nite we chat on fone. den we tok abt... haha.. cannt say hu. arbo lata mi n her die ar. haha.. aft 4 so long finally chat wid her. hai.. my teacher wana c my parent. hai.. mow listenin to music. haha.. im goin to haf fun at nite le. hapi hapi hapi.. haha..

sux

2005-07-14T09:44:00.000+08:00

knn.. i dono wads wrong wid mi. i noe i change alotz. i noe i m nt da amy tan i used to be aft i cum to ite. i realise that i change alotz. bt wad abt my other frenz?? dey oso change ma. mayb juz lyk wad i say, things that is belongs to you, is yours. things that is nt suppose to be belongs to you, no mata how hard u try to get it, it still wont be yours. juz lyk my frenship. i m a failure in frenship. i thug that my frenship is strong among some of dem. bt.. wad i tink is totally wrong. i get hurt. im full of blood. cuz i get hurt. i m sad. y m i da one hu owaz make ppl hate mi? y m i da one hu owaz cry wen i realise that i did wrong. i don wan. i don wan. i cry everynite. cuz i tink of past. all my hapi moments. bt now? sad things keep cumin to mi. i hate it. i hate my life. i wana haf a simple life. thats all i wan. sob....

sian

2005-07-13T10:56:00.000+08:00

knn.. today late. suppose to haf test de. bt late. den miss liao lo. knn.. today v sian. cuz attent lesson onli 1 hour nia. knn.. cum 4 fuck ar?? nw gt computer lesson. den i didn brin my book to sch. den my toopid fuckin teacher ask mi to pay 20cents fuck la.. wad kind of toopid tings she wan frm mi sia??? feel lyk askin her to fuck off la. ccb. today bad mood la.. alot of tings happen. goin to get crazy. cry cry cry. sob sob sob. sad sad sad.

hai

2005-07-08T10:57:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck.. i feel so fuck up.. i hate myself.. knn.. bitch bitch bitch.. if i cn, i will wana change all my lifestyle. hai.. ytd, daddy went to work.. suppose to cum back at 4plus de.. bt he cum back at 12plus. sadded.. y????? cn work liao, bt.. hai.. sad la.. if i cn, i will quit sch, start work. hai.. dono la.. stress!!!!!! feel so fuck up!!!!

haizzzzzzzzzzz

2005-07-07T10:57:00.000+08:00

v sian.. today, late 4 lesson.. suppose to reach sch at 9. bt i woke up at 8.30. sian.. i jump ot of bed.. den i go bath, den go sch. reach sch abt 9.50. hai.. nw attendin another lesson. sian.. haha.. today daddy start work liao.. yea man.. hapi hapi hapi.. haha.. nw.. im goin to count down to my birthday liao.. 19 july is my birthday.. haha.. hapi hapi hapi.. im gonna put down all the unhapi tings. continue my life. on my birthday, is a new life for mi le.

im a bitch..
tis is bitch aka amy
Big In Total Control Herself
and... im a bitch..

lonely

2005-07-06T10:56:00.000+08:00

hai.. im a bitch. im a gal tt nobody wan. i m a failure. nw, i m gonna b alone. a lonely gal tt wil nv b as hapi as past. u choose to leave mi nw. wen i dono wad to do, u r here to help mi. u ask for patch, bt i rejected. nw, u didn msg mi anymore, i feel so weird. mayb i m a bitch tt dono how to tearsure ppl ba.. i m a BITCH...

hai

2005-07-05T15:47:00.000+08:00

v sian.. today reli dono wad is goin on.. im totally a failure. im a bitch, chee bye kia and a gal tt nobody wans!!! hai.. today went to lot 1. mic go interview. den mi n ying accompany her. ha..

i feel so left ot,
im a gal tt nobody wans.
i m known as a bitch in every1 eyes.
juz leave mi alone.
i don wan any1 to ke lian mi,
cuz is v unfair to mi!!!

sob

2005-06-30T10:40:00.000+08:00

fuck fuck fuck.. y muz u get hurt??? aft readin your blog, i reli hate both of you to the core!!! how i wish tt i cn msg or call you, juz to ask you to fuck off la.. he hurt you. you, yourself gt hurt! ME??? you tink i wont feel hurt meh?? wad do you mean by, my hand is bleeding, but it does not mean tt my hand is in pain. its my heart??? i reli dono wad to say, wad to do. how to conso, how to help you. sometime, i reli hate you to the core cuz of him!!! tink la. tink of wad happen in the past you do for him. i reli gt nth to say la. how i wish i can tel you tis, i love you, i don wan you to gt hurt, i wan you to b hapi everyday. smile sweetly, laugh loudly and always b cheerful. bt.... AMY TAN RELI DONO WAD TO DO!!! I OSO DONO WHY MY DEAR WIL GET HURT.

HEARTBREAK!!

Hate tis kind of feelings.

ccb, knn, fuck off, knnbccb. hong gan la!!!!! fuck fuck fuck!!!! hate hate hate hate hate!!!!

hapi..

2005-06-22T10:20:00.000+08:00

haha.. ytd my darling cal mi frm england. haha.. hapi.. she cumin back on nx mon. ha.. btw ytd go pak pool wid yun. fun fun fun!!! ha.. super sian!!!

sian

2005-06-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

hai.. super sian. nwadays.. happen alotz of tings. hmmm.. btw.. my birthday cumin.. haha.. july 19.. dono wana celebrate ma.. haha.. i wan a MP3 Zen Neeon to b my birthday present!!! bt i tink is impossible!! haha..

wen i say i love you,

i mean it!!

don ever mistaken wad i say.

i juz wana tel u tt i love you!!

sian

2005-06-21T15:23:00.000+08:00

sian half!!!

2005-06-06T14:11:00.000+08:00

hai.. hmmm.. i haf dono how long didn post my tings le!!! haha.. my police summon had send to my house. fine mi for $100.. SIAO ar.. sian lo.. den tings happen to mi at once.. v piss.. i v stress. bt wad i cn do??? nth bt juz face it. sometime i tink, mayb its time for mi to mia. bt i cannt mia wid yun, cuz she noe whr i stay, whr i go n we work at d same place. hai.. sian.. i reli dono wad to do. v tired le. haha.. i shall end here. nth to rite.

hai..

2005-04-29T13:18:00.000+08:00

sad.. i m sick.. omg.. tis morning i wake up.. den.. i realise tt i m sick.. hai.. wad a bad day.. hai.. today gt EBK test.. hai.. sian.. nw otsid zuo bo..

sian...

2005-04-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

ytd, go chiong.. suppose to go wid ah hong de. bt in d end, she say she gt smt on.. den mi n kai li go lo.. go club x.. den i order 2 jar.. aft tt order 7 cup of tekila.. hai.. sian ar.. i didn enjoy ytd.. v du lan la.. hai.. v tire nw.. slp @ 4plus.. wait up @ 8.. cuz go sch ma.. TIRE TIRE TIRE.. wana slp liao.. hmmm.. i muz either change mi nick to amy aka miss lonely or amy aka miss slpin or amy aka miss lonely aka miss slpin.. cuz i had been slpin tis few day. hai.. my eyes v pain.. wana close liao.. PAIN PAIN PAIN.. closin liao.. hai..

hmmm..

2005-04-25T14:25:00.000+08:00

fri to nw.. happen alotz of tings.. hai.. don wish to say.. say liao ma du lan.. hai.. anywa.. fri i go chiong.. yun treat mi.. haha thx laopo.. haha.. we drink bourbon coke.. den tekila.. btw we went club x.. haha.. tis wed n nx wed i goin chiong again.. hee.. fun fun fun..

piss

2005-04-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

kai li intro mi her fren.. hai.. den we chat on fone.. she call mi earli in d morning to wale mi up.. den i v tired.. so i go sch @ 10.. hai.. btw.. her name is xiao dou.. den she noe i sick.. she ask mi nt to drink cold water.. bt ppl whu noe mi well.. noe tt i wont listen de.. i juz agree.. bt stil.. i drink.. den she noe.. toopid.. she don allow mi to put my tougue stub.. den say if i lie to her my tougue wil swollen.. toopid lo.. den i tel yun sbt it.. cuz she cal mi ma.. den i say i wana cry liao.. den she help mi curse her.. hee.. mi laopo v sweet.. love her alotz.. haha.. i stil sick.. head v pain.. my eyes closin.. tire..

hee

2005-04-20T07:53:00.000+08:00

hai.. ytd.. go mt yun.. she go open her acc.. haha.. den aft tt we go eat.. aft eatin.. we go serene.. den she study her chinese.. i tok on fone wid mei.. hmmm.. actually.. yun ask mi to go up buy fag de.. den i say.. if i cannt pass how??? hai.. reli cannt pass.. ji tao sian half.. den bobian.. i walk to shell buy.. hai.. tire sia.. den go home abt 10.. we (mi and yun) go "interview" @ yun house downstair.. The STOP.. haha.. hope dey wil call us.. cuz i reli bo money liao.. haha.. today.. reli don wish to go sch de.. bt bobian.. cuz of presentation.. den force myself to cum.. den v tire.. yun msg mi.. say jennifer didn cum to sch.. den jennifer suppose to pass her chinese book de.. bt she didn cum.. den yun how to study??? actually wana help her de.. bt she don wan.. den nvm lo.. she den msg mi wen i m hafin my lunch.. she ask m i goin to settle my dinner otsid.. den i say.. if parent gt cook.. den eat.. if don cook.. den don eat.. she ji tao reply say sua.. den i say ok ok.. ask her whr to eat.. she say lata if i pian her how?? den i say.. i wont pian my laopo de.. den i ask her pian her in wad way.. she say.. pian her go order food first.. den wen her food is der.. i didn order.. haha.. she v cute.. den she say eat mac lo.. go study lo.. today we go fish farm.. knn cb.. reli nth to do de le.. ji tao sian half.. somemore v tire.. den jieying ask mi to acc her back to sch to practice her dance.. so here i m.. stil in sch.. haha.. i love my laopo much sia.. miss my miss lemon.. haha.. yun juz gif mi a cal.. she say jennifer goin tp pass her d book aft she cum back frm jp.. i tink she wont cum lo.. hai.. dono la.. anywa.. lata goin to mt yun.. @ serene.. aft her tut.. mt her @ 7.30.. hmmm.. i v tire liao.. my eyes v pain.. hai.. sad.. sobsobsobsob.. i noe i siao liao.. shhhh.. don tel any1 k.. haha..

sob..

2005-04-19T04:15:00.000+08:00

hai.. v tire.. on friday.. i sick.. bt stil.. i cum sch.. hmmm.. den go home.. den mt reb.. go j8.. toopid sia.. i hate some of her frenz.. v cb.. hai.. v na na.. knn.. lyk shit, hai.. den aft tt i send her back to my place. den frm my house.. go queentown.. pak pool again. tis tyme.. we go wid xan and ben.. n wid yun de mummy.. haha both her mummy der, so funi.. den julia(yun de mummy) say i look lyk some1.. hmmm.. she is funi.. hee.. den my father kp askin mi to go home.. bobian.. so i go home lo.. wen i reach home.. juz finish bathin.. jennifer msg mi.. den i cal her.. she say.. xan saw smt.. he say, he saw a guy.. bo dai.. hmmm.. den dey go home lo.. hai.. sian half.. den actually ask dem to cum over to my house.. cuz gt prayer downstair my house ma.. bt cuz is too late liao.. den jennifer oso say her house area oso gt.. so sua lo.. den i tok to yun on fone.. hmmm.. we tok alot of tings.. abt d pak pool de.. den i go down ask my uncle abt it.. my uncle say.. as long as i m fine.. mean nth wil happen.. hmmm.. hope so.. hai.. den on sat.. mi and yun go eat fish.. she eat fish.. i eat chicken.. sob sob.. cuz is d last day.. cry cry.. hai.. den we start workin.. haha.. we work at new shp.. cuz old shp gt 42tables of dono wad la, located at weatlake blk 4 downstair.. hai.. yun, wei min, jennifer and fiona work downstair.. sob, leave mi alone.. hai.. bt abt 8plus.. yun and jennifer cum up.. cuz jennifer sick.. den she go home.. aft tt my aunt cal mi and janet go down help.. hee.. den i c yun face blank black.. so i didn tok much.. bt she gt tok to mi.. she say she is hungry.. haha.. den i say i brin her go eat aft work lo.. hmmm.. v bz ar.. den aft workin.. some of d worker workin upstair.. cum down help.. exp sheng jie.. tt toopid guy.. cannt stand him sia.. oh ya.. i saw my "long lost fren".. haha kai li.. haha.. den we chat alot.. hai.. on sun.. do nth.. workin tt tyme.. nt say alot of ppl.. den aft workin.. i, yun and kai li go staircase fag.. tt is hoe i end my wkend.. haha.. nw v xin ku.. cuz sick.. cry cry..

i miss u day n nite,

bt wad i noe is you don miss mi, don lyk mi.

i try to do wadeva ting i cn do,

to let u noe mi well.

bt in d end,

end up wid nth.

mayb is a dream,

a sweet dream tt u gif mi.

bt y do i cry wen i wake up?

y do i my heart feel hurt wenave i tink of u?

its tyme to 4gt tis dream,

in order to continue my life..

a new life 4 mi..

hmmm..

2005-04-15T04:49:00.000+08:00

haha.. so sian.. today.. nth happen.. oh.. i was late 4 sch today.. cuz i wake up late.. hai.. den reach sch liao.. go find jieying n mic.. haha.. hmmm.. today gt EBK test.. sian.. i scare i fail. cuz i do d ledger.. whice is bt suppose to do.. sad.. hai.. den yun msg mi.. say she didn go sch.. cuz sick.. hai.. my dear owaz sick de.. haha.. den today, goin to open acc.. haha.. hmmm.. nth much to say liao.. shall end here.. hmmm.. ya.. any1 wana go chiong nx month??? haha.. cal mi.. hee~

hee

2005-04-14T07:05:00.000+08:00

haha.. super sian.. hmmm.. actually, nth to rite le. hmmm.. wanqi work @ fareast le.. @ swank.. hmmm.. ytd.. run away frm sch.. cuz jieying sick.. den actually wana send her home de, in d end.. we go jurong enter.. mi, jieying amd mic.. haha.. jieying is sick.. mi n mic.. hai.. don nd to say.. den jieying go home.. she follow us to jurong enter cuz she wana top up her bus card.. hee.. den mi n mic go mt her stead (mic's stead).. haha.. den we go fareast.. i go find wanqi.. den chat wid her 4while.. den i go find ailing.. omg.. ailing dye her hair.. i lyk her hair much.. haha.. den aft tt.. we go pak pool.. hmmm.. mic de stead.. pro sia.. haha.. den i go home.. hmmm.. jesprit ask mi whether i wana buy deewars frm her.. $25 per bottle.. is cheap.. bt dono izit fake de.. hmmm.. ji tao sian half.. haha.. hmmm.. juz nw yun cal mi.. we tok 4while.. den hang up. she ask.. sld she pay 4 her bill.. d line she tk frm wanqi's father.. i actually don agree her to pay de.. dono la.. don wish to tok abt it.. i don allow her to pay.. bt she is nt tt kind of ppl tt wont pay tings de.. hai.. hmmm.. nw she muz b @fareast.. eatin our fav food.. hmmm.. she lyks to eat fareast de fish.. i lyk d chicken.. haha.. tis sat last day.. sad.. sod.. cry..

oops..

2005-04-12T05:34:00.000+08:00

hai.. on fri nite.. super sway.. nbcb.. hmmm.. i mt jia lin @ queentown.. den we go eat.. wait 4 yun to cum mt us.. go pak pool.. hmmm.. wen yun reach.. we go machmaster pak pool.. den jia lin n yun play 1st.. i wait 4 jennifer to cum.. hai.. my toopid father cal mi.. make mi so piss.. den i v du lan.. sua la.. den i pak pool wid jennifer n her bro (wei li) den i wen i play.. i tink i hit smt.. bt wen i look back.. i don c anyt.. hmmm.. oops.. wad did i hit??? hai.. den i didn say anyt.. unti i go ot of machmaster.. i tel jennifer. v scary lo.. plz la.. imagin d ting is bhid of mi.. omg.. hai.. den.. ytd, sunday.. yun cal mi.. ask mi wana go margaret drive.. den i say anyt lo.. den i cal her.. she is @ machmaster wid fiona.. pak pool.. hmmm.. den i go der find dem.. yun and fiona zai pak pool.. den fiona ask whether wana go play billiard.. den i agree.. haha.. 1st tyme sia.. play billiard le.. haha.. wen dey end d table.. we are suppose to go down to return d pool ball.. cuz der is a stair link down.. den fiona go down 1st.. followed by yun.. yun fall down.. v slowly.. hmmm.. first ting she say.. some1 push her down.. hmmm.. someting is disturbing us.. omg.. don tink much.. mayb we r juz scarin ourself.. haha.. ytd.. work.. cn say alot of ppl.. haha.. btw.. i m so sori to ppl tt rite on my tag blog.. i didn reply.. cuz i don use comp, unless i go ppl house.. paiseh k.. anyw.. love uuu all lotz.. haha.. i miss all my frenz.. haha..

frenshp is smt tt we muz treasure,

if u don treasure yr frenshp well,

u wil end up lyk mi.

lostin my frenz..

misslonely cannt affort to lost any of her frenz anymore.

she wil cry n die.

cuz of her lost of frenshp..

hai.....

2005-04-08T07:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. today.. wake up @ 6.30am.. go bath.. hmmm.. yun cal. den i pick up her cal. she say.. jennifer didn cum to sch.. den i was kind of BWG liao.. cuz she is 4eva lyk tt. hai.. den i go sch @ 7.30.. haha.. was nt late le.. hee.. hapi sia.. den first lesson, 2hrs le.. ji tao sian half.. den jieying sick.. go hm.. hmmm.. we had our lunch @ clementi interchange.. den go back sch study.. 1hr lata.. mi and mic wana go walk walk..den we plan 2 go lot 1.. ji tao sian half.. cuz we cn onli walk 4 1/2 hr.. wad is d point sia.. of goin der.. hai.. wen reach der.. i realise tt mi zip is unzip.. oops.. den i v paiseh lo.. cuz i tink gt ppl saw lo.. face red red.. hmmm.. den i saw mi cousin der.. rongrong.. she onli pri3 le.. alone @ lot1 interchange waitin 4 my aunt.. haha.. she v yong gan.. hee.. den we go walk ard.. wen we goin back sch.. we realise tt is aready 1.55.. OMG..we r goin to b late 4 our test.. den mic say.. tk taxi.. bt i say no money.. she say she pay first.. haha.. den we reach sch @ 2.14.. haha.. juz in tyme.. hee.. i muz pass my comp test.. or i reli don nd to study liao.. haha.. hmmm.. v tire le..

i had noe u 4 long,

bt u didn noe mi well.

wen i try to gt close to u,

u owaz try to hide away frm mi.

my heart hurtz wen u say mean tings to mi,

bt it cure mi wen u smile at mi.

wad i wan is u hapi,

so i cn continue bein hapi.

hai.. sian

2005-04-07T07:33:00.000+08:00

hai.. i fail my comp test.. i onli score 30/70.. hai.. nw retkin lo.. hmmm.. i haf to sit infront of my teacher.. she is goin to look at mi.. hai.. sian.. today.. go clementi market eat w jieying and mic.. haha.. den we go NTUC buy tings.. haha.. i buy chocolate.. omg.. i m goin to b fatter again.. hai.. today.. jennifer didn go sch.. she say.. nt in mood.. den sick.. hai.. jia lin oso.. dono yyy.. den i ask yun to tok to dem.. she say.. jia lin she wil tok to her.. bt jennifer.. she haf been tellin her since last yr.. hai.. dey r hafin o level tis yr le.. reli dono wad is in their mind.. ailing msg mi.. she say.. go chiong nx mth wen she tk her pay.. haha i agree.. so we goin chiong nx mth.. haha hmmm.. nw rainin le.. v cold.. cuz i m insid air-con room.. haha.. i pass my EBK test.. petty cash test.. i score 43/50.. hmmm.. actually tink of quitting sch ytd nite.. den i msg dear.. haha.. my laogong.. she say mi don quit.. cuz if i quit.. nth to do.. hai.. i v stress.. i m onli good at EBK.. others.. i didn pay attendion.. how????? stress la.. i cry ytd.. sad.. dono y.. juz cry.. mayb my depression is back.. hmmm.. anyw.. ytd.. i go eat prata w yun.. haha.. haf end here nw.. goin to do my test liao.. or teacher wil scold.. haha..

im reli v sori

2005-04-06T05:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. firstly.. i wana say sori to yun.. i sldn haf tel jennifer.. i m so sori.. hai.. reli piss off w jennifer.. she ask mi go chiong on fri.. den i say no money ma.. she say.. don tok abt money.. or she wil fun lian.. i mean ya.. no money.. i wont go chiong ma.. she don understand la.. her parent gif her money.. i haf to earn 4 it le.. nt ez money le.. dono wad she is tinkin.. i m fuckin diff frm her.. her parent noe how to earn money.. hai.. onli my.. don wish to say liao.. i learn my lesson liao.. bt wad i wana say.. sori yun.. reli dono she wil do tt.. dono she wil break her prom..

sad.. angry.. cry..

2005-04-05T05:03:00.000+08:00

was juz sad and angry.. abt to cry.. cannt say much.. anyw.. i juz realise tt he.. he gt galfren liao.. sad ba..

i haf been waitin for u,

bt.. u dono seem to noe anyt.

wen i realise tt u haf her,

i m sad,

i didn cry.

juz tt my heart break,

juz lyk a glass..

once break,

cannt mend it back.

tire..

2005-04-02T15:28:00.000+08:00

hai.. today.. super sian.. hmmm.. we gt EBK test.. is for petty cash.. hai.. everytyme dono how to do de la.. hmmm.. den my DM cum in.. say wana c mi, jieying and alice.. sian.. actually thug tt she is goin to kick us ot.. bt she say.. she is tryin to help us.. hmmm.. wah.. she v "good" hor.. hee.. i noe i v mean la.. juz nw wen i in class.. jennifer msg mi.. she ask.. cn i cfm wid her.. whether wad tyme cn mt her.. hmmm.. i dono la.. super sian n tire la.. den she say.. i everytyme lyk tt de.. say wana mt.. bt in d end cannt make it.. so u tink i wan la.. my tyme is super diff frm dem de le.. so everytyme dey end sch.. i wil stil b in sch.. studyin lyk a fool.. hai.. cannt say much la.. hmmm.. den.. ytd tok to yun.. she sound hapi.. haha.. i msg her ytd.. say sori if i haf been too cold toward her.. deal to my sch.. gt alotz of projects to do.. den gt test..she den reply.. haha.. no la.. i too sensitive liao.. mayd ba.. mayd is i too sensitive liao.. as i cannt affort to lost any of my frenz liao.. so i bcum more n more sensitive.. cannt blame la.. i noe my nick is miss lonely.. bt i don wish to b lonely in real life.. hmmm.. actually wana go chiong onwed de.. cuz lady's nite ma.. bt jieying cannt go.. cuz.. she haf to settle her fone bill.. so cannt go liao.. hee.. nvm la.. cn go other day.. hee.. hai.. super sian la.. hmmm.. wad to say le??? i m gonna b mad.. hai.. cry.. heartbreak-wen.. cry ot loud..

sad..

2005-04-01T01:40:00.000+08:00

i was sad ytd.. cuz of yun.. she.. hai.. is al cuz of wei kang.. reli don wish to tok much abt it.. she is owaz gtin hurt.. cuz of wei kang.. dono y.. she reli love him alotz.. dey aready break up 4 7mths liao le.. bt yyy cnt she juz 4gt abt him???? make herself so xin ku 4 fuck??? make herself sad.. make her frenz surrd her feel so sad oso.. hai.. dono much la.. how i wish tt i cn help her solve everyting.. so she wont b sad.. bt i cnt do much.. cuz.. i m human.. nt god.. cnt reli do much.. tis mornin yun msg mi.. say wad she wil cal wei kang.. is abt tt wei kang bro add her in frenster.. hai.. den i say.. don wan her to gt hurt.. mayb she mistaken wad i tryin to say la.. den i didn reply her liao.. wad 4 sia.. lata quarrel how??? i don wish to quarrel wid her juz cuz of him k.. hai.. suan la 4gt abt it la.. make mi feel more sad onli.. hmmm.. ytd my dear cal mi.. stella cal mi.. i miss her so much k.. we tok 4 while.. den hang up liao.. miss her much.. miss her badly.. hee..

sian..

2005-03-31T07:50:00.000+08:00

hai.. today wake @ 6.. so tire.. den bath.. go sch.. hai.. sian ar.. den slp in class.. zuo bo.. slack al d way.. hai.. den juz nw hafin EFC.. our teacher say.. her class de stars r al gone.. haha.. is al tken by mi.. miss lonely.. haha.. so sori la.. cnt stop mi frm lovin stars.. somemore is glow in d dark de le.. haha.. i love it men.. hee.. hai.. sian la.. today.. go sch oso dono do wad de.. ji tao sian al d way.. hmmm.. i realise tt i change alotz.. dono yyy.. mayb i m in a sch tt owaz make mi mad.. hmmm.. i lost my close fren.. bt dono yyy.. i wil feel sad.. miss lonely cannt lost ani of her frenz liao.. its hurt.. i noe i m mean.. bt wad i cn do??? i cnt stp myself k.. i cnt do much nw.. my frenz hates mi nw.. i noe.. SAD.. CRY.. if i cn haf a change to redo every of my mistakez.. i wil choose nt to b born in tis world.. cuz is actually a mistake tt i m born in tis world.. sad.. hai don wana say liao.. make mi wana cry.. ytd.. jennifer cal mi.. wen i was slpin.. hai.. den i chat wit her.. she say.. zen wana jio her.. bt she scare tt d frenship btw mi, her n yun wil b far apart.. den i tel her.. don wori.. i wil b wit her.. provided tt she cannt gt hurt.. n muz study hard.. she say she wil study.. n wont gt hurt.. i dono la.. i v scare tt she wil b lyk yun.. i aready c yun gt hurt liao.. cannt c jennifer gt hurt oso.. hai.. den i say.. i aready gif up on yun de relationship wit wei kang liao.. cvuz i tink.. i cannt stp her frm doin anitingz.. my heart hurt wen i say tt.. cuz i reli love her lotz.. juz hope tt she wil noe wad she wanz.. nth much to say liao..

v sian.. so piss..

2005-03-25T15:22:00.000+08:00

haha.. today.. wake up @ 10+.. so piss k.. yenmin cal.. bt i stil slpin.. cannt blame ma.. den she kind of piss.. hmmm.. nw.. @ my cousin's house.. zuo bo.. hee.. lata mtin yun.. go temple.. den go watch movie.. haka.. eye 10.. love ya baby.. hmmm i change my frenster nick.. frm amy tan.. to amy aka lonely.. yun owaz cal mi lonely.. cuz.. my byebye ringring is lonely.. haha..

let mi share abt wad i did on wed nite.. hee.. i wen boat quay wid my frenz.. sheng jie n chee ling..
den we go club x.. we actually sit otsid de.. bt is kind of hot.. so we wen in.. we order.. bourbon coke.. den.. aft tt.. we order takila shot.. v na na lo.. club x close @ 12+.. den bobian.. we took taxi to queentown club.. pak pool.. hai.. v sian.. drink nt enuff.. hai.. den go home @5+.. hee..

amy loves you

2005-03-22T13:49:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. reli dono wad to rite..taday.. sad.. tis morning.. yun msg mi..den aft some msg.. she actually ask mi to help her ask abt d uob tings.. bt den.. she say.. if u r bz.. den nvm lo.. wah i v angry lo.. she is d 1 i care abt.. i cn wei le her.. push everyt asid de.. bt she say tis.. i noe she scare tt if i too bz.. den stil haf to help ask.. bt is ok.. den.. aft some msg.. she ask.. whether wana open wid her.. den i say i wan.. bt no money nw..don wan her to wait.. she say its ok.. she oso haf to save up more money.. hee.. abt 12.. i wen ot.. to mt xiu mei.. we go pak pool.. haha.. v sian..